Let it flow

Lonely
Very reclusive feeling inside
On the outside I remain bubbly
This must be where I find God the most
Where he shows me himself and who I am
And who he must want me to be
So I'll quit trying and let it flow
Because when it flows and with living water
It flows in the right direction
Even if I don't see it
So lets wait it out
With a calm spirit
And a steady perseverance

Cling

To simply cling to you 
By the security in your consistency
The security in your unconditional love
Raining down on my parade
No pain, no petty behavior
Void of sadness
Joy, something of ease
Music playing
Shutting out the noises
Listening
Sitting in the presence of My father 
Knowing that he's listening
Love
Love you
Lord show me the layers you see
I wanna see
The spiritual battlefield
Thick walls broken down
Chains broken
These blue eyes are cloudy
Clarify
Because clarity is beautiful
Gotta cling to you
Must
Continue
Continue to cling

Ya know

Ya know that feeling when your heart and soul demands growth
When the Word becomes like candy and you can't get enough
When your broken and ya realize that this Word of God you crave
Is free
You scroll and flip through the pages and realize things ya never knew
You see people differently and start to feel like a loner
Teach me, show me, tear me apart only to put me back together better than before
Rescue me Lord

Building of solitude

Think about it...
An abandoned building remains in solitude
Void of feelings, just content
Accompanied by the homeless and the birds
Welcoming to those who enter its lonely doors
Over time, crumpling and rotting in places
The heart of the building beating slower and quieter
Trying not to freeze in its dwelling
Wanting to feel again
But I'm cold
I'm numb

Rubberband

Pushed against the wall

Pulled like a rubber band about to break

Wandering around

Never able to be alone

Headphones trying to block it all out 

Losing focus, gaining a new one

Wondering if this focus is worth the time and effort

Or if effort should even be dealt 

Pushed around, losing feelings for anything

Breaking like plexi glass, unable to pick up all the pieces

Before I cut my feet on the piece the broom didn't find

Cut and tried to be put back together again in a matter of seconds

Without time for healing to stop the bleeding 

Finding out things you didn't see before 

Drained and damn tired

Stronger

It's a lonely feeling of fear
A fear of letting anyone back in
A feeling I can't seem to shake off
And it's heavy
Heavier than heartache
More like a wound that has made me cold
Shivering, frail; yet stronger than before
My heart secured by a barred system I've built over time
Only broken down by someone strong enough
To break through the bars I've been hesitant to break
Stronger than before