It's falling

"There's so much I don't know

And you find you're holding on
To everything you know
But the strength to move beyond
Is found in letting go..." Ben Rector

Its falling
Its finding trust in who you're falling for
Its learning that fresh, honest air is more refreshing than guessing
Its caring for someone in a selfless manner without return
Its falling through clear air
Falling without fear
Falling with prayer
Its falling
Its finding

Unknown

Constantly running towards the unknown
Heart pounding, head spinning; thoughts of the unknown
Pain and joy competing on a balance beam
Seeking, praying, curiosity of the unknown settling in
Waiting and watching

Reassurance

I feel like Im running in place lately and I don't know how to move on. I wanna know how to jump, to increase the elevation and discover the purpose of the pain. Is it pain or just pure frustration? I want to feel loved, cared for, show me I'm needed and appreciated. I only feel that way at random. I want mutual...everything. Maybe it is but it has to be verbal for a person to know. Maybe not for some but I lean towards reassurance.