Reassurance

I feel like Im running in place lately and I don't know how to move on. I wanna know how to jump, to increase the elevation and discover the purpose of the pain. Is it pain or just pure frustration? I want to feel loved, cared for, show me I'm needed and appreciated. I only feel that way at random. I want mutual...everything. Maybe it is but it has to be verbal for a person to know. Maybe not for some but I lean towards reassurance.