I dont even know

I am the queen of overthinking, the master of thinking I know what's coming next...when in all reality I have no idea and end up assuming the worse, or a replay of a previous situation. I compare and make myself upset just by doing so. I never shutup inwardly even though I seem quiet on the outside. I say things I regret and go farther than I mean to. I doubt people and have a hard time trusting them even when their good to me. I have my ups and my downs and my reallly really good days that have me feeling on top of a mountain. I go day by day planning out the next, stressing over whatever is written down to do next when in all reality the Lord always takes care of me. I always fret and he places exactly what I need right in front of my face. Amazing how patient he is with us ...when we continually try to wheel and deal with things on our own while he consistently shows up right on time. Crazy this love.