You don't leave my mind

Drew,

I knew youd go and stalk me. Love ya anyways. Don't judge me lol

Who knows what the future holds, or even what tomorrow is gonna bring...I don't technically want to know. The beauty in God writing our stories and his perfect timing is what makes it worth not knowing. And boy does he write them with his own personality and color. One day at a time. One thing to tackle at a time. Always preventing yourself from letting others define your worth nor blocking your heart from experiencing what it means to fall in a good type of helpless love with someone. I'm one to think someone is faking it and not truly being themselves with me but I have no doubts with him. Maybe I'll read this again one day with a big goofy smile on my face. I think about him all day long and most things point to him somehow without even trying. I think about his heart and and how much he actually cares about me as a person; his selflessness which makes me want to be more selfless as well. I long for him to just hold me and to simply breathe him in... I start missing that aspect right after I pull myself away from him. I know I sound cheesy but apparently I've "found my heart...and I have emotions." Its hard to put into words how I feel about him. But he takes what I thought was too "special" for anyone to handle and he cherishes it. With a huge smile and eyes that feel as if they see right through me when they stare me down. It's like he pulls me in; physically and emotionally and I feel complete. Complete as if I didn't know I was incomplete to begin with. In fact, that has been my year. The past 5 months have shown me even more about who I am as a person, the blessings that God has poured out, and the grace that I only thought I knew about. We are undeserving yet he pours it out when we need it most; quite humbling.  

On the other hand, I think people neglect the fact that they DO deserve to be treated the right way and loved like he would have it/ Only by God's grace have I fallen so hard for a man who genuinely gets me. My heart is so full.